Saturday, 31 December 2011

New Years Eve 2011

Soooo..... here it is, the eve of 2012 and I find myself on my Blog.
Hoping that writing a few words here will help me release things I don't want in my head any more and give space to the new thoughts and ideas that will help me move on.

As always I am thinking new year, new start but I wonder how long it will last this year.

I do seem extremely positive, I have loads of new things I want to try and a great positivity to succeed this year. Which is pretty amazing seeing the year I've had.

I have given up my business, which led to (eventually being able to admit) a mini break down. It has taken me 10 Months to see light at the end of my very dark tunnel. I know there is still a long way to go but just this feeling I have is now enough to help me through to the end.

On the plus side. I am still only 38 which I feel gives me 1 Year and 5 Months to grow up lol I feel 40 is the time for me to be settled and happy with whatever I choose.

I finally can see that there is room (if I can find a decent one) for a Man in my life. This feels so strange typing as I have never needed or yearned for one, (Being strong and independent like) but I can see, someone to have your back in hard times could be nice, Someone to discuss your day with and share each others feelings could actually be a good thing but not essential, If one comes around I may not hold up the barriers so high :-)

I have goals for my business, A structure that if the first plan doesn't work there are plenty of others to try before I get to melt down. This I have learnt is much needed!!

I have given up smoking, Think I am on day 12 but feeling very positive about this,

I have learnt to trust no one but myself .... although having people around you is good, Just don't get pulled in too far with the need to have them in your life. I understand now that I am a very needy person, I never would have thought this but I do crave peoples time and company, What I have learnt is that people don't crave my time or company as much and I am left lonely with the need to be in company and they have just got on with their life with no thought for me. I am a dreamer and a thinker and this goes way beyond meeting someone having a day out then saying goodbye and on with your life, I continue to live in the time spent together missing and craving what we had whilst others just move on. This can be applied to simple meet ups for drinks, trips to the cafe or meaningful moments. I always need more and then punish myself with the what iffs. This is something I have just realised and needs to be worked on.

By far the best and absolutely strangest feeling of all is my daughter, (My one thing that I feel I have succeeded in doing very well with) is having a Baby and this will make me a Nanna.... of which I am extremely overwhelmed. This has to be possibly the greatest thing to happen to me and also the one thing I have never considered could happen which in itself is strange to understand. I do know though when the Baby is here it will feel like the most normal thing to happen and I will fit the role of Nanna well.

So there we have it my life in a few paragraphs ... haha. Hoping my writing will help with my positivity in the new year, I bare all and hope 2012 brings me what I need.

Happy new year to anyone who reads this .... Look out for me as I am around this year with Mr Positive by my side and I hope to succeed :-)

Friday, 22 July 2011

Update on my Crochet

A few things I have been working on since my last post. (No Gerbera lol)
I am a start and dont finish kind of person. I love starting new projects but rarely finish anything. So posting anything finished is quite a positive moment for me.
Here we have a few Piggies to be rehomed, A super duper chunky bag, Some pretty pink Crochet embellishments and a Sock Dolly, (She isn't actually finished, She needs a Mouth but she has been waiting around for so long to be photographed I was feeling sorry for her)

A few Blogs I follow have been "naming and shaming themselves of unfinished projects or wip's that never seem to get finished" I have way too many to name and shame but I do intend to work harder on finishing my wip's.
Here are their posts if interested, they are lovely Blogs. It really does give you motivation to try and finish projects when you see others are in the same boat as you.

All my makes are on my Facebook page if you would like to see them closer.

Thats all for now..... Happy Crafting. xxxx

Tuesday, 12 July 2011

Gerbera knit - Crochet

Well after my last post I had a go at the Gerbera. This is what I got after two sessions.


(What I call a session is - Sit down, Craft till bored- go do something else) These two sessions were probably 15mins total as I do find Knitting not as exciting or easy as Crochet.
So me being me decided to have a go at a Crochet Gerbera. Got all my books out and had a search - Couldn't find anything that was even half as nice as the Knitted one. So..... me being me again decided to have a go at converting the pattern to Crochet. This really really didn't work. I then had the genius idea to do this;

Chain 11, Double crochet in 2nd Chain and all the way around the Chain until you get back to where you started. Double Crochet all the way done one side. Slip stitch at the bottom.
If anyone is actually interested in this and doesn't understand, Let me know and I will post more detail.
Do this until you have 32 petals as per the pattern and here we have what I did again after 2 sessions. ( These were longer more enjoyable, So I got more done)

12 Petals, They are a lot bigger but you can just adjust the stitches and hook size.
It looks just as good if not better ;-) than the Knit petal and was soooo much more enjoyable for me. I still have a way to go but at least it's an enjoyable start.
Well there you go hope you enjoy Crocheting Gerbera's. xxxxx

Monday, 11 July 2011

Friday, 8 July 2011

Long time no post.

Well I have been away for ages but I am back, don't know for how long but a small flare for crafting has returned to me and I like my Blog!
Even though I am not in Business anymore (huge horrible long story, that I am trying to pretend hasn't happened) I looked through my Blog and thought it was great!! Lots of things that I have made all in one place and that, I like, very much. It gives me a sense of achievement. It doesn't even matter that I hardly ever have any comments lol. I still like it so I have decided to return.
It has been an absolute shit year for me. There is no other way to describe it!!! I have had highs but at the moment can only reflect and feel the lows. It is hard, very hard to move on but I am trying to do my best and so here I am Blogging again and it feels good.
All items that I make are on my Facebook business page;
and I am doing a bit of comping on my private page;
or you can follow me on twitter;!/Wendyscrafts
Ha ha just in case anyone is interested.
Well the reason for my post is this;
Isn't it wonderful!
It is the best flower pattern I have seen and so I have started to have a go at making some. It looks like it may take a while I will post when done.
I am just making some pamper basket up to try and sell and wanted something of mine that I have made and thought these would be lovely on ladies ones.
Well my first of hopefully many posts. xxxx